the life of me so far

ok i have no idea where to start but ill try. i was born feb 16 1989 at 2:35 pm . my brother wanted to name me wesley but my mom bargained with him and said leslie. my father was kicked out by my mother before i was born. so ive never met my biological father. i was quite the honry child growing up. i hit kciked and bit my mom constanly whenever i didnt get what i wanted. i started seeing a shrink at the age of 4 believe it or not. a psychitrist and a thearpist. my first time in a mental hospital was at the age of 4. the only father i knew was buzz my brothers dad. and he only came up on sundays. he was a great man to untill he died when i was 10. after that i started acting out and had to go back and see a shrink. i was seen at the once shawnee hills(now prestera) with a thearpist and at behavioral medcine with a psychitrist. it didnt help much. i was put into a behavoral porgram called davis stuart in lewisburg wv. i was 12 at this time. this i also when i became pagan. i was there for a year and a half before i was pulled out because it wasnt helping me. i was still as physically agressive as ever. i went home for about 6 months until i got really agressive again and went into a minors jail untill they found me a place at pressley ridge whiteoak. a lockdown behavoiral moddification facility. i was there for 9 motnhs untill they felt i was ready to be realeased. and i went home again and i went to herbert hoover highschool in my hometown. there i took drama classes and chourus classes. i certainly wasnt the best student in the world but i did love the arts. while in chorus i met someone name joey, the first guy i ever fell in love with. he had asked me out first. i denied him at first because i didnt like him but i decided to give him a chance. at firs t we were alot alike we went out for a year until i found out he was going back out with his old sweetie. i broke up with him but still loved him. only later to find out from him that it was all i big scheme to get his old girlfriend back from that point on i hated him and stoped talking to him. this being two years from when we first broke up. i went on rebound with another guy named william untill he broke up with me for his ex..then i just blew. i got into a huge fight with his ex that he dumped me over. so i was arrested that same day and takin to a juvinelle jail again. thankfully i got out the same day and went to river park a mental hospital for youth. most people would have got suspended for a week..no not me. i got sent off again. there iwas went through diagnostic testing untill they put me in their facilty for the seroiusly emotionally disturbed. barboursville school. after i was there for 6 months i was transfered to a step down facility called preslley ridge odyssey. like all the others it was a group of ten or less girls living together. i actually met a good friend of mine there. i spent almost a year there until i turned 18 then i walked out.(these facilitys cant hold adults if they dont want to stay. so i went home and took my ged and went to college at state university in institute unill i got knocked up by a guy i never should have got involved with. i dropped out . went home and me and mom got into a fight again and she kicked me out. so i went to a homeless shelter called brookside shelter in kanawaha city. while i was there i had a huge change in my belief. i had a very strange dream it eventually brought me back to believing in god/christianity. i decided i couldnt live without the magick so i settled for both paganisim and christianity. its more like i believe in god but i also believe in magick and the paranormal anyways after being at the shelter for a whilei came in conflict with the staff. i got so angry with the shlter staff i walked out. sincei had nowhere else to go my mother took me back in. about 8 months into my pregnancy i got really sick. i got severe pains and rushed to the emergency room. i was in the hospital for a week while there i had to have a c section. my babys heart was failing. so i had a son. alexander herschel christenson. he was in nicu for a week because of bvreatrhing problems. i didnt get to see him for a week though because i was quarintened. at that time they didnt know what was wrong with me. they just thought i had the flu so i got released and got celulitis too. a week later my breathing was basicly hypervenilating and i was rushed to the hospital again. all my stats were off the wall. finally they found out i had severe nemonia and a plural fusion caused by it. the plural effusion is what caused the pain that i went to the hospital the first time. i even almost had to have surgry to remove the fluid. two months after i got out i got extrmely agressive and was sent to highland mental hospital for a week. mom watched xander for me. i got out and two weeks i was back in the hosptal at bateman. i stayed there for almost three months untill they felt iwas safe for myself and others. while there mom got temperary custody of my son so that cps wouldnt try and take him. when i got out i went to a transitional shelter untill my mom got really sick and i had to come home and take care of her and my son. bout a month later i got my own place. where im at now. vista view apartments charleston wv. the agreemant was xander stays with mom untill im stable on my meds and am finacially stable. so far ive been in the apartment2 months. so now im planing to go back to school and my mother has agreed to watch him while i get ready and while im in school. i plan to go to carver career center in august fot culinary school towards becoming a chef. then i plan to work on a cruise line and possibly move to honolulu oahu, hawaii. i still see xander all the time. im as much in his life as if he were never gone. but im trying to fufill my dreams so i can beter fufill my sons. thats my life so far